This week has been ok workwise, the trip out to the college every thursday breaks up the week even further and its nice to see the smile on the face of the student who rides in the taxi with me every week.

I still don't know if I've been paid wages this week as the wage slip hasn't arrived again. I normally receive it every saturday. I know the postal service has its moments but this is 3 weeks of moments and I'm not sure I like it. Having said that, I don't personally think it is the postal system, more likely the woman in the office at the Academy who still hasn't pulled herself together and sorted my wages out.

If it wasn't for the fact that I am now going to be going to college every week I would be seriously threatening to leave on the grounds that I'd had enough working as a volunteer - because that's what you call people who don't get paid isn't it?

The weather is abysmal. It was cold last night (friday) and this morning it was gale force and wet and miserable and I had to concede and put the heating on in my room. As much as working in woolly gloves is ok, you don't get the same feel for the keys as you normally do.

I'll be writing more poetry shortly, but am collecting all my work in order to put it into a book I'm writing. But with 38 pages of poetry, I still have some way to go before I can fill that up. And I'm not overly sure I can put in the Doctor Who poems as I think that would breach several forms of copyright and plageurism - think I spelt that wrong.

My OU course starts soon and I can hardly wait. It lasts for 12 weeks which is as long as my attention span is for study, any longer and I'd be wondering why I was doing it, or was that just the pointless SVQ3 in Early Years childcare and education. I seriously wonder what possessed me to take that course. Oh yes that's right, I thought I'd get a job at the end of it. HA!

SVQ, HNC. Hmmm! I took a HNC in Business Administration, collected the certificate at the end of the course, couldnt find a job. The dole office told me it wasn't a recognised qualification. WHAT? If I'd known then that it wasn't worth bothering about I'd have continued fishing for the summer, I'd have taken the job in the new fast food restaurant and made some cash and not survived on 3 different types of porridge for breakfast dinner and tea.

When I submitted my SVQ3 to an employer I was told I didnt have enough experience in paperwork. I'd been a childminder for 3 - 4 years previous and wonder just how much of the rainforest I had to cut down in order to please everybody???

So I think I'll stick to writing, blogging and more writing. I'm still focussing on saving the cash to get the book published. A tiny part of me worries that this could be a complete fraud, but I've seen the site on the web, I've read all the bumf and I've had one of the publishers speaking to me on the phone, all sounds legit. So why do I have doubts? Maybe because of the vast sum I have to pay for my work, but then sometimes you do have to take that gamble, you do have to throw caution to the wind and take a chance. So this £700 will be me taking the biggest chance ever in getting my work published. Big deep breath and release!

I'll be fine and at least its only my money at the end of the day. If for some reason I've screwed up and made a terrible error, it's my money and only I will have to live with that.